Move, Mountain, Move!!

Oh Jesus, I do believe, help my unbelief! Mark 9:24

Today we met with an agency and an attorney. We realized the first costs are going to be almost $6,000 for just the agency to conduct the home study and post-adoption visits. On top of that we will have lawyer fees, documents charges, fingerprinting fees, doctors fees, immigration and citizenship fees. And none of that includes the travel expenses! (Did I mention that it is our goal to take our boys with us to pick up their new brother.) Upon arriving home, I realized that because we want to adopt from Jamaica and the Child Development Agency there requires that adopting families work directly with the CDA and not an outside agency (Independant Adoption) that we are not eligible for many of the adoption grants that I had planned on applying for. Then, I read that we must make TWO, not one trip to Jamaica to adopt from that country and may have to spend up to 14 days there on the final trip.

I also know that we do not have the funds in our account to cover those costs.

What I do know is that when God is calling you to do something, He will always provide a way for it to happen. That if we have faith as small as a mustard seed, that we can say to this mountain, "Move" and it will. I know that God has very clearly called us to adopt and just as clearly to return to Jamaica to do it. Therefore, I know he will provide.

As I think of all the obstacles in our way to get to Jamaica and bring home our baby, I try to focus on what will be.....on the first moments of holding our new son, of giving bubble baths again, singing the itsy bitsy spider and teaching him to ride a bike.

I am inspired by Katie Davis, "I believe that we were each created to change the world for someone. To serve someone. To love someone the way Christ first loved us, to spread His light. This is the dream and it is possible.

We can let the fear of something that really is small compared to the greatness of God cripple us. Or we can take a risk, do something to help someone else, make a person smile, change someone's world."

"At the end of my life, I don't want to arrive in heaven on a full tank. I want to fall into the arms of our Savior, knowing that I used everything that He had given me to be His hands and feet while I walked on this Earth!"